Surrender

Tonight as I was in chapel, I looked around me and noticed the sea of hands floating in the air in response to what worship song was playing and I began to do the same, but quickly pulled my hands back down, feeling slightly awkward in this position. But why? Maybe, I'm made uncomfortable by surrender...

This is straight from the journal entry I wrote as I was in chapel:

"Surrender, it's a funny thing. Like most other spiritual disciplines, as soon you feel you've attained it, it slips right through your fingers like water. Surrender is a well you dip your hands into and you cup your hands to drink from and as you think you've got it under control, but you look down to find your hands completely dry. 

I find myself uncomfortable with positions of surrender, such as bowing or raising both of my hands unbridled to heaven. Because that would actually require me to let go and accept that my life is not my own."

All of that is not to say that surrender is unattainable and thus possibly bring about an attitude of hopelessness. But instead that surrender is a practice that we should recognize daily. And to tie that back to the whole point of this blog, finding our identity in Christ definitely starts with surrender and recognizing that what Christ has for us is so much more important than anything in our lives and allow Him to transform us. But at least some degree of surrender must take place before He can begin to work on us. I suppose this is a really short thought, but I just thought that was something really cool that God showed me tonight =)

Of Course,

Alysha K.